Gloomy

Looking through all my previous post, I can't stop realizing that most of my posts were actually so childish, immature, and meaningless. I don't know what to write anymore..maybe next time, I should just go...

Today, I feel happy.
or
Today, I'm feeling sad?
or..
Today....

I don't know anymore. Sometimes, life is just not that simple.

I so wanna blog about how I got bitched by family members, the whole "family politics", but no, I didn't. because...I'm afraid. So afraid...

I don't go around blogging about my fears, my insecurity, that I'm such a loner on the planet...

I wished I could do so, but...then again, I couldn't.

Quickie

Just a quick update to tell everyone that I'm still alive. I'm sorry for not keeping in touch, really bad at this. Have to blame my desk for this. I haven't figure out a way to ensemble it, therefore, it's still lying on the floor. I can't work without a table!! Anyways, I'll get it done tomorrow! Then, hopefully, things will start rolling..lOlz..lame excuse, I know.

Have been busy for the past week. More homework and new pieces to practice. One good thing about Berklee is that, I getto attend concerts for only a dollar!! Yes, I went for this jazz singer's concert on friday night, Lalla Hathaway, it was great! Her singing was so good, the crowd was like cheering and dancing!! The best thing was it costed only a dollar, yes, $1!!! More concerts coming up, I might even get to watch the 12 girls band for a dollar too!! Loving it..Slept through Saturday morning. Then went out for lunch with 2 of my friends at The Cheesecake Factory!!Finally, I've found my cheesecake!!yes, the perfect one, Strawberry Cheesecake!=) All satisfied after a good meal, we set off for a movie. Watch flightplan. I personally think it was very predictable. However, Jodi Foster was definitely a good actress, no doubt! Best has yet to come...I finally went to church on Sunday! ohhh...you have no idea how miserable life was before going to church, that guilt just haunts me, now, I'm free!! The service was actually pretty good. Then, lunch in chinatown, which was cheap, but the food was bad..

Overall, I would conclude that my weekend wasn't the best of all, but I definitely tried out loads of new things, new experiences! Looking forward for the next one!!=)

A Dream

Every dream comes to an end when it's time to wake up. So is my dream. Wake up from feeling blur, confused, weird, and back to the college life. The past weekend happened just like a dream. I couldn't really recall what happen. Maybe it's just part of my brain that tells me, it's better to forget about it. I remember walking a lot. Aimlessly with two of my friend. Crashing into other people's house party on saturday night and end up sneaking into Hilton hotel's gym. lOlz..that's college. Not the end yet, finally, end up eating pancakes at my aparment at 3 a.m in the morning. Tell me if this is not college life. A bunch of weird musician, doing weird stuff. I don't know..That house party that I went to, was the worse party I've ever been. The place was cramp, no air ventilation, music sucks, and the beer taste awful. I had a sip, and that's it. No more, thank you. Well, its college! The highlight was sneaking into Hilton's gym!gosh..that was so much more fun!



hilton gym..lOlz.




angela & me in boston public.

Friday night

I can't help myself from crying watching The Legend of 1900, call me emotional, but I bet most of you will. I'm not sure whether I'll be able to walk away knowing that someone will be comitting suicide, especially when that someone is my best friend...just a thought.

It's friday night, and I'm sitting in front of my laptop tying this post, after watching a newly recruit favourite movie of mine. Doesn't this sound pathetic? What happen to all those crazy party plans? lOlz..A friend of mine actually called me up asking me if I wanna go party, but you know what I say? Obviously, I said no. First of all, because I'm watching a good movie, I'm not willing to leave my movie, leaving it hang like that. Secondly, I have the tv satellite people coming between 8-12noon tomorrow! Yes, on a Saturday morning. Therefore, I think it's wise to not go.

I want the soundtrack from The Legend of 1900. The dvd too.

Week one of class is coming to an end! The weekend that I've been longing for is finally coming!yay~ I'll be getting my satellite set up on saturday morning!and and and..I'll be getting a desk!Finally, after walking around searching high and low for one, I've found the perfect desk!hurray!~ Simple things like these in life really make me happy!!

I'm tired. Too much information in a day. Just way too much. All the high tech gadgets, finale? Reason? Garageband? omg..all these are really killing me! How I wished that I've taken all these music technology classes back in Melbourne. Then at least, I'll know what's going on now in my Music technology class. Besides feeling dumb, I'm actually kinda happy. Soon, when I master all these skills, I'll be able to compose on my laptop! ahahha..bye bye pencil!bye bye eraser! no more writing music with hand! lOlz..I can't wait to get started!oh yeah, trust me, I do!!

Friends wise?..hmm..I've met a few people. I met a Malaysian today in my comping aka accompaniment class. She's been sponsored by her company to do music synthesis. You wouldn't believe how excited am I when I found out that she's from Malaysia. There are so few Malaysians here. So far, I've only met 3!out of the whole berklee population! That's crazy! There're so many koreans and japs here. They tend to clinge to their own group, which is pretty sad. Besides this Malaysian, I've met a few other people. Became really close with this girl from London! The thing in Berklee is that, there are so many students, even in first year itself. There's no such thing as constant. Every hour, I have a different class, meet different people. Not that I'm all that anti-social that I don't wanna meet new people, is just that in this way, it's hard to build up a friendship. yeah...so that's how things are so far.

Loving the star on my wall...and my futon.

New academic year, new resolution

Orientation week and the crazy shopping weekend has finally come to an end. Tomorrow will be the day, I mean, THE DAY!!Here comes my *big* plan...

I SHALL....

1. study hard, and do work consistently which includes, homework and practicing
2. be active! get involve.
3. do my laundry on weekly basis
4. keep my apartment clean at all time
5. brush up my cooking skills
6. bla...bla...bla....

Leaving by yourself isn't easy at all, especially when you are so far away from home. You've gotto do everything by yourself, yes, yourself. And this, is definitely one of the biggest challege that I'll face. Which I'm facing. Therefore, I need to learn to live better, on my own. Whenever that missing home/lonely/miserable tear starts falling unconsciously, what follows up is always a smile. A comfort that only God can provide. His voice saying, dear child, you're not alone. I'm here with you, always will.

Last but not least, learn how to blog according to the title. So bad at this.

Lying ain't good...At All,even if it's on good course

I lied. Not by myself, but with my beloved cousin. We lied about her not visiting me when she is supposed to. I've learnt a lesson from this. When you lie, everything just seems to go bad, worse. So, it started like this.

***She wanted to visit me during this weekend, more like, I wanted her to visit me, in a way. Then, her mom didn't really want her to, cause, she should be studying. Therefore, we work out this *major* plan, that we'll keep her visitation on the low, so that no one will find out. So, we lied to both of our parents.

And so the curse began...On thursday. I got home around 1pm from college, started cleaning up, again, and finally, by 5pm, I'm done with packing, unpacking, and making sure my apartment is clean!yippie..I was so excited that I decided to cook myself a meal, meaning rice and a dish. I had chicken with gak choi. It turned out pretty good, I mean, the rice is cooked, so is the chicken. Then, I decided to shower before I enjoy my dinner. So, I did. All in a sudden, while I was blowing dry my hair, my apartment black out! yes, meaning, no electricity!!I freak out!Not going to go in detail, all I've got to say is that, it was a horrible night, no fan, no light, I ended up eating in the dark, watching Gilmore Girls on my laptop, which of course didn't last for a long time, cause the battery ran out...that was thursday night.

well...thinking back, that was the highlight of the whole lying thing. yeah..besides stepping on each other shoes, being pretty clumsy through...

However, both our parents found out anyways..so, no more lying!gotto be honest!***

Anyway, so far, the weekend has been wonderful. Loads of shopping done, furniture mostly, loads of walking, and talking! It's good having someone around!=)

Intimidate

Intimidate implies inducing fear or a sense of inferiority into another.....

Therefore, after yesterday's audition and today's harmony,ear, and arranging test, I felt intimidated by all these bright freshman, or transfering student. Do you have any idea how my heart pounds while I was sitting at the hallway waiting for my turn to be audited?? Listening to all these great people showing off their amazing jazz style of playing?? They are so passionate about their music, so inspired. Guess what when I finally enter the room, I told the lecturers that I know nothing about jazz music, and that's why I'm here to learn. They were really kind though...I think I suck at my playing, rhythmic wise...yeah, but they've been really kind. Trying to pull off that smile..trying so hard that even when I'm not facing them, I can feel that they are making an effort to do so!

Rite now, I'm just so happy that everything is over!and and and...I've got my new baby today!my apple laptop!It's the coolest, most gorgeous electronic gadgets that I ever own so far!!It's beautiful..so smooth.oooww...loving it!What should I name it?or she?maybe a He?...Don't worry,baby compaq, I'll still love you!

A New Begining

Arriving in Logan International Airport, Boston, with 4 large suitcases not exceeding 50 pounds*great achievement*, 1 hand luggage with the apporoximate weight of 20 pounds, and a laptop -----> here, my journey in the foreign land begins.

Tomorrow will be the day when I finally get a full view of my studio apartment. Can't wait to see it! That will be the place that I have to stuck on to for at least a year! Better be nice!

By the way, taylorians, Mr Chua Kian Hoe has safely arrived in Boston. Met him up in the hotel..he'll be transfering to Canada in a few hours time! poor thing...transits and transits..one more to go! Conclusion, take MAS the next time!lOlz..

I'll update more soon!very soon..when all I see is the four walls of my studio apartment...