She

It was last night that mom called and told me that she went home, forever. I couldn't believe the heartbreaking fact that she left us already. I just had a conversation with her the night before. She told me that she was sick, and that she felt weak, no sign of leaving.....but......

I was holding back so hard, trying to smile as I told my friends. In a way, I assume, to protect myself from being hurt. It was that one hug that broke me down. Tears start rolling down my cheek as I was walking back home at midnight. I cried even harder as I approached my apartment, then stop, thinking that there's no point crying now. Started talking on the phone, keep myself occupied with practice, homework, and work.

At 3a.m, I finally went to bed. The emptiness in the room, the silence haunts me. I felt lost, burst out crying like a child. Trying to think of all the good times we had when I was a little girl. Trying hard to think of the number of times when I actually said, I love you popo, or kiss her on her cheek whenever I leave her house...or telling her about christ. I don't remember...

I wished I had done more than merely going for dinner at the house...I wished I had called her more often...I wished I had told her that I love her so much the last time we talked..most of all, I wished she accepted christ.

It's all too late now, isn't it? ....

She, my beloved grandmother, may she rest in peace. Amen.

I've Got Mail

After a long day at college, I got home, shower and got ready for work. When I reached the entrace, I saw a green envelope lying on the table. I've got mail.

I was so excited. I'm sure all study abroad students feel my excitement. Anyways, I opened it, *gently*, as I was walking down Newbury St. It was negative 5 degrees celcius outside, but my heart was warm. I nearly burst out of tears when I saw three beautifully written notes and a key chain *which I haven't yet have a good look at it*, from my 3 lovely ex-housemates!
I was carried away from all the stress and the brutal weather for a moment. Thank you girls! You girls made my day!=)

Back at the library, the books were piling up...I have to arrange and put them back. I usually hate this part of the job, but today, I was smiling as I was doing my job.

5 more days and I'll be on my way home.

Good laugh

I can't wait till after finals to blog this up. It happened while Yenny and I were walking down the stairs from the library, heading home.

Conversation between X and Y.
X: Hey, are you guys watching the Lord of the Ring?
Y: Yeeeeaaah...why? You wanna join? It's really good, highly recomended!(the last part, added by me)
X: har...don't want lar..the japannese movie, THE RING itself is scary enuf..wanna watch LORD OF THE RING summore??..scared lar..

LOLZ!!! I can't stop laughing after she told me that one of her highschool friend actually said that. poor guy!

Will update when finals are done. Blogging at 5.30am..insane! I'm going mad!!

Running, running, running

Running out of time. Finals are coming up, starting from this thursday, and drag on till the 19th.
Running out of inspiration. 2 music composition+sequencing due on the 12th of Dec and an english paper on the 19th.
Time!! Where are you? I need you!!

Winter is officially here. It was snowing the whole day yesterday. The whole city is white. The road is so slippery, that I have to glide, cause I was wearing some *fancy* boots, which had cause me a pain in the a**. It was a rather graceful fall, suit my name perfectly. It all happen after a long day of walking at the Galleria. Yenny and I were walking towards the T-station. As you can imagine, since it was snowing the whole day, the walkway is kinda covered with snow, which was rather slippery. She was walking normally, strong grip cause she had the right boots on. On the other hand, I have to hold on to her in order to walk safely. Everything was fine till we reach this little slope. OMG..I have no idea what I was doing. I was sliding down the slop, trying to hold on to her arms, so that I won't fall. I was basically struggling not to fall, but she didn't notice but only felt that her arm being drag lower and lower. Finally, when she turned around, she saw me on the floor, burst out laughing. oh boy..and they were two guys behind us. They must be thinking, *when is she gonna fall? Just fall man!!*. It was rather embarassing, but funny.

Enought of stories of falling down. Snowing aint fun. It's cold. Especially when it stops snowing. Boston will be expecting snow on both tuesday and friday.

So much to to this week. Working in the library on tues, wed and sun 8pm-12am, and on thurs, 10-12, then 1-2pm. Practise for private instruction, projects and read Aldoux Huxley's Island, and write a paper. woohoo...So much going on. No matter what it is, Memoir of Geisha and The Lion, the witch, and the wardrobe are definitely in my pack schedule this weekend!!