The Thin Red Line

The thin red line is all that lies between Philia and Eros.
Philia refers to friendship love;
Eros refers to love between lovers.
A line so thin that sometimes you do not even realize that you have cross it.
Once you do, you put everything at risk.
You either gain a lover or you lose a friend.
Correct me if I am wrong.

To love or not? Tough call.
I thought I have made up my mind, yet every time you come close, I lost the courage and determination. The anger vanished. Instead, I just melt in your arms.

I wish the line was thicker and in the shade of bright red, with a danger sign stood right at the border, so visible, that I would not dare to cross it for I know the danger that lies ahead.

Right now, we are standing on the thin red line.
It is not thick enough to hold us both for long.
It will break.
When that happens, where will we fall?

I wish we were standing on solid ground, on either side.

Hope

**When the sunshine of God's love meets the shower of our sorrow, the rainbow of promise appears. ** - the daily bread november 12, 2007.

After being in the dark for more than a year,
I gave it all to You.
You carefully wrap it with your light,
and sealed it with a rainbow.
May you guard my heart, and lead me on.

The Right Thing

Your heart tells you that it is the right thing to do, the kind thing, and you decided to stick with it.

You take into considerations all consequences, damages, that you might bring upon the other party and yourself.

The moment finally arrives when the final decision needs to be made.

Once it is done, all there is left to do is to hope for the best.

I pray that we will be strong, because we know, this is the right thing to do, at least for now.

ME time

Every time I look at you, I lost what I have to say.
I could not think rationally, hence the irrational side of me surfaced.
It hurts to look into your eyes,
It hurts to hear your voice,
It hurts to even be in the same room with you.
I know you mean no harm, and I know you care.
The fact is, we know this is not going to get anywhere.
We are very similar, yet different in many ways.
Right now, we are at different stages in our lives.
Going back and forth will eventually ruin the beautiful friendship we had,
which I cherish deeply.
Maybe, one day, we will meet eye to eye.
For now, all I need is ME time.
So, please understand.

P.S I love you.